(Originally Published on: July 2nd, 2020 @ 11:11)
Never Imagined
Unconditional Love
Awakening
It Takes Control Of Me
So much Flow WithIn MySelf!!! … So much Beauty!!! … So much Love!!! … So many writings get automatically written WithinMe!!! … So much, that it instantly takes control of My Whole Body… It instantly takes control of The Whole Of Me… And it flows… And flows…
And it is so Absolutely Beautiful!!! …
Never Imagined
But, eventually, I have to stop to tend to my everyday physical life… And “The Stop” is extremely painful… It is as painful as “The Flow” is Beautiful… It causes extreme pain in my body… To the point that I literally get sick… I never knew that kind of pain before…
Never imagined something like that could exist…
Trying To “Train MySelf”
Over all the many years of me going through these processes, I have tried to avoid the pain one way or another… I have “trained myself” to eventually stop letting it flow, so I do not have to go through all this…
But the pain continues…
The Meaning Of The “Pain”
The pain of knowing that, no matter what I do, it all continues to flow and to build up as intensely WithInMe… My Whole Being and My Whole Body feel like a dam about to burst…
And it is overwhelmingly agonizing…
I Know
I know I have to contain it because I have to tend to my everyday physical life and to everyone and everything I am responsible for…
So much Beautiful Pain!!!!!
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From my book: Soul Kaleidoscopes (Vol 1, 4/26/2020
“It is ALL inside of you!!! … Look Within YourSelf!!!”
Soul T Alma
