(Originally Published on: March 14th, 2020 @ 11:11)
One Of My “To Be Or Not To Be” Issues
The Energy Of Writing
Soul Stories
“The Stop” And “The Flow”
So much Flow WithIn MySelf!!! … So much Beauty!!! … So much Love!!! … So many writings get automatically written WithinMe!!! …
So much, that it instantly takes control of My Whole Body… It instantly takes control of The Whole Of Me… And it flows… And flows… And it is so Absolutely Beautiful!!! … But, eventually, I have to stop to tend to my everyday physical life… And “The Stop” is extremely painful… It is as painful as “The Flow” is Beautiful… It causes extreme pain in my body… To the point that I literally get sick… I never knew that kind of pain before… Never imagined something like that could exist…
A Dam About To Burst
Over all the many years of me going through these processes, I have tried to avoid the pain one way or another… I have “trained myself” to eventually stop letting it flow, so I do not have to go through all this… But the pain continues… The pain of knowing that, no matter what I do, it all continues to flow and builds up as intensely WithInMe… My Whole Being and My Whole Body feel like a dam about to burst… And it is overwhelmingly agonizing… I know I have to contain it because I have to tend to my everyday physical life and to everyone and everything I am responsible for… So much Beautiful Pain!!!!!
The Knowing
The greatest realization of all is The Knowing that I have to find the balance between My Physical and My NonPhysical Selves… Between My Physical and My NonPhysical Lives… But how??? …
The Two Multidimensionalities
How to “stop” all that “Multidimensional Spiritual Beauty” from flowing, so I can focus on my Physical Life and the things I have to, and want to, and need to do there??? …
How to “stop” all that “Multidimensional Physical Life Beauty” from flowing, so I can focus on my Spiritual Life and the things I have to, and want to, and need to do there??? …
The Question And The Answer
How to “stop” That Multidimensionality and just focus on finishing one and then the other??? … How can I do one and then the other??? … Or… How can I do one and stop the other??? …
Do I even want to do that??? … Of course not!!! … I do not want to!!! …
This is So Beautiful!!! … I want it all to flow at once… In every direction… From every direction… WithinMe… Around me… Everywhere I look… In everything I touch… In every single one of my thoughts…
Pure Beauty All At Once
Is this a problem? … Does it mean there is something wrong with me? … Of course not!!! … This is Pure Beauty… This is something that more and more of us are already Living and Being… And something that more and more of us will start to perceive…
∞ ∞ ∞
From my book: Soul Kaleidoscopes (Vol 1, 4/26/2020
“It is ALL inside of you!!! … Look Within YourSelf!!!”
Soul T Alma
